HEAR ME OUT FOLKS, Dj Bobo speaks

2006-12-03T20:12:00.000+08:00

IM BACK!!!!!

2006-12-03T19:49:00.000+08:00

wat the fuck!!!

2006-03-26T16:05:00.000+08:00

...Millenia Skools Salibandy...

2006-03-26T15:20:00.000+08:00

had da game of my life yesterday.. we drew wif pasirians 6-6.. we were battling for our pride in dat game.. started low as we were down 4-2 da first period but we battled our way to clinch a draw.. finally breaking our losing streak.. n finally we ended da league wif our heads up high knowing we are a strong team indeed.. der was a lil twist at da end of da game wen my bro was sent off for a violent hit.. anyone of us wud hv reacted da way he did.. da opponent was really out of hand.. after his sending off da opponents were awarded a golden opportunity to take da game wif a penalty.. which dey did.. but dat didnt demoralise our team but instead we fought hard wif only four men against da five oppositions n wif only two minutes to play on da clock we fought hard n made it in time to score an equalising goal.. it was really a pleasant experience playing wif da boys.. n i reali hope we cud get at it again next year.. Salibandy... a team i wont forget.. thanks guyz.. bobo out..

2006-03-24T15:13:00.000+08:00

don sms or kol me anymore.. dat was wat a fren of mine told me yesterday nite.. den i was like WTH... i mean wat did i eva do to make her angry.. boi was i confused... confused plus hurt.. dat msg reali hurt me a lot.. haiz... i didnt realise losing a fren juz like dat reali hurts.. she has her reasons.. but wateva it is i hope wateva i did or said didnt hurt her dat much... haiyo...haiyo.. HAIYO!!!! bobo out... haiyo...

2006-03-13T11:28:00.000+08:00

my lovely crew Eo3.. love u all...

2006-03-06T18:35:00.000+08:00

imma start choreographing n try out new stuff.. so if u guyz think dat u guyz wanna join me in my quest in dance feel free to beep me at 90629246..oh ya my crew is known as FLINC.. beep me ya'll..if u wan to.. tweez

2006-03-02T09:51:00.000+08:00

went to town yesterday to ease my mind a bit.. met up wif rizal, adzim, fir n lin.. it was great.. we had fun laughing at long john den we went to play some x box games.. linda joined soon afta.. it was great payed boxing n hell yeah i showed who's da man.. it was reali funny i tell ya.. linda n rizal were da cutest yesterday.. dey were partners in crime as dey battled their way thru stages of hilarious action.. dey played 007 an action game for two n damn dey were cute.. i cant stop laughing yesterday it was reali great.. hope to spend time wif dem again hahakz.. bobo outz.. ayoyoyo hahakz..

2006-02-20T10:28:00.000+08:00

hasyim n mel

2006-02-20T10:26:00.000+08:00

hasyim

2006-02-01T08:34:00.000+08:00

love love love love

2006-01-31T17:48:00.000+08:00

ive been sick da past few weeks n im reali wonderin y.. at times i wud hv a headache n it wont go away.. oh God im juz sick of da fact dat pple muz b so ego.. y cant a simple act of courtesy b accepted as something nice.. i cant say hi to u i cant even smile at u.. worst of all i cant even apologise for wat i did.. wat's da use of tellin u anything.. i wont convince u no matter wat.. it was all in da past n yes i wont deny dat i hurt u very bad.. yes i miz u n yes da feeling's still der but hv u eva heard me askin u for a patch up no.. all i did was juz argh!! im not tryin to convince anyone coz i noe it wont help.. it wont bring u back to me.. it's juz dat at times wen im alone u pop up in my head n all i did was to think of u n at times say hi n nuthin else.. it's bad enuf u hate me.. it's bad enuf feeling anything towards u is crap n bullshit in ur eyes.. all i eva did was juz wishin a simple hi.. u feel hurt it doesnt mean no one else cud feel it.. yes i wont deny da fact i was harsh coz i was blinded by ego n temper.. no point diggin up da past coz it was all crap in ur eyes.. yes i do miz all da times n yes i do cry at times asking myself y im so stupid n foolish.. n yes i do realise my mistakes not till da very end but every single time i made one.. but wat'd u care.. it's all bullshit now.. nuthin can change anything now.. it's stupid to u ya it is but i miz u which is sumthin so wrong in ur eyes.. it's so wrong.. cant help but to feel it.. still it's so wrong..

2006-01-23T14:09:00.000+08:00

on sat we had a game against NUS Saints... it was a beautiful sweet SWEET revenge!!! we won 7-1.. my bro scored a penalty n fuhh did he brought da spirit up..da goals kept comin n eventually won wif a satisfying victory...SUPERB!!! my bro aiz was der to witness wat to b known as our first victory of da season..i hope dat our spirit wud maintain as it is till our nex game..thank u Allah for providing my team wif da spirit on our last game..BOBO out...

2006-01-16T09:25:00.000+08:00

darn it lost again yesterday.. my line started well yesterday but afta da first goal n a few mentally disturbing moments things got out of hand and we conceided a couple of foolish goals.. first period went disastrous and nuthin much were improved during da second period.. da third period were wen we started to roar.. started da third period wif a blast.. we managed to slot in two goals courtesy of me n alif.. yesterday i saw another side of my team da side wer we slacked in defence n easily being distracted by outsiders.. i hope dis cud b improved in da upcoming game against da saints.. dat's all for now ya'll.. bobo out...

2006-01-14T10:30:00.000+08:00

choreographed 4 counts of 8 yesterday wif aiz but still somehow i m so not in da mood for da dance comp.. i dunnoe y but da team's kinda low in pursuing a win in da competition... darn it somehow im kinda low rite now... got a game tomolo got to get myself together again..haiz

2006-01-12T17:16:00.000+08:00

yet another new skin hahakz !!! COMMENT ON IT PLSSSS i welcome constructive criticsms only... hahakz

2006-01-12T09:58:00.000+08:00

hahakz scored my first goal on da first game man!!! YEAH YEAH YEAH!!! but den ah my calfs got CRAMP LAST MINUTE AH WALAU WEH... but ah i tell u it was worth it seriously.. bust my ass off man during dat game... well done boys!! eventhough we lost i learnt dat we shud not give up n pls DON B SO NERVOUS DURING DA GAME... dat's all for now ah k ah bubbye...

2006-01-11T12:16:00.000+08:00

juz made a new skin for myself hahakz a bit sketchy but i like it... neway i welcome any comments juz tag me aiitez... thanks ya'll.. time to MAKAN!!!!

2005-12-29T02:13:00.000+08:00

thought of blogging bout wat i did today uhmm guess i'll leave it to tml.. talked to lil ida juz now she was kinda bored.. she told me she was tired guess dat's y she was kinda restless n all while talking to me.. gosh felt kinda dumb coz she reali wasnt entertained much wif da way i'm going wif my conversations.. guess i'm making her bored by da minute when i call her up.. by da way she sound guess i am making her bored.. haiz gtta do sumthin bout it or shud i juz not think too much bout it coz it's not affecting anything i think... HAIYO!!! i reali need to noe if i m reali dat bad in talking... HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ!!!! gosh gal i m reali sori if i made u bored most of da time... somehow my conversation skills have gone down da drain... haiz haiz haiz!!! gosh i'll be haizing my way to bed... love ya ida miss ya dad.. come to think of it i reali miss my old man... HAIZ!!!! wat a bad nite nitey nite everyone haizzzzzzzz...

2005-12-23T15:19:00.000+08:00

One last dance with you
even though what we have is strong
both of us know that we've done wrong
you could lose everything
need to give it up
just one last dance with you
for all the moments that we shared
all the lies they don't compare
you gotta go back to him, and I realize that
every time I see your face I know
there's a part of me that can't bear to let you go

And I would give my heart
give you the world, risk losing everything I got
i'd give it all to you
though I don't wanna stop
I know it's the right thing to do.....yeah

One last dance with you
so hard to find the words to say
but I can't see any other way
girl you've risked everything
time to give it up
just one last dance with you
and though it breaks my heart to leave
we both know it's time to let it breathe
you gotta go back to him, girl I realize that
every time I see your face I know
there's a part of me that can't bear to let you go

And I would give my heart
give you the world, risk losing everything I got
i'd give it all to you
though I don't wanna stop
I know it's the right thing to do.....yeah

So many times we tried to hold back
we been here before now girl
and it feels so cruel, yeah
a million tears won't change the fact that
I find it hard to play the game
when I feel like i'm the one to blame

But I would give my heart
give you the world, risk losing everything I got
i'd give it all to you
though I don't wanna stop
I know it's the right thing to do.....yeah

And I would give my heart
give you the world, risk losing everything I got
i'd give it all to you
and make our peace with god
I know it's the right thing to do...yeah

One last dance with you.....oh year....oh yeah

2005-12-15T10:22:00.001+08:00

sewing my baju kurung

2005-12-15T10:22:00.000+08:00

JEBAT vs TUAH

2005-12-15T10:21:00.001+08:00

at da kampung meeting hahakz

2005-12-15T10:21:00.000+08:00

we ate da honey form da bee hive.. yum yum

2005-12-15T10:12:00.000+08:00

trip to malacca... visited da bee museum..

2005-12-09T11:30:00.000+08:00

me n my best bud aiz down at esplanade.. tweez to all

2005-12-09T11:28:00.000+08:00

went to esplanade wif dis few galz n dudes yesterday damn it was fun!! all except teo of dem are faiz's cuzzies.. dey're cute n fun i tell ya...

2005-12-07T19:30:00.000+08:00

~my new hairdo by RIZAL~

2005-12-05T10:50:00.000+08:00

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2005-12-04T22:14:00.000+08:00

- 7 -

2005-12-04T22:10:00.001+08:00

- my latest craze CAPOIERA dancing -

2005-11-23T13:52:00.000+08:00

I miss you, miss you so bad
I don't forget you, oh it's so sad
I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found
It won't be the same, oh Na na, na nana na na
I didn't get around to kiss you, goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again, I know that I can't, I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly

The day, you, slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same, ooh
I have had my wake up
Won't you wake up.
I keep asking why.
I can't take it It wasn't fake.
It happened you passed by.
Now your gone now your gone

There you go
There you go
Somewere I can't bring you back
Now your're gone now your're gone
There you go
There you go
Somewere your not coming back

The day, you, slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same, No, the day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same, oh Na na, na nana na na I miss you

2005-11-10T10:07:00.000+08:00

had dis climb last fri.. followed a class 5 route it was awesome... did some ballet routine on da way up hahakz...

2005-11-10T10:06:00.000+08:00

dis was a tough one.. followed a class 6 route fuyoh struggled my way up man.. eventually after several tries got my way up YEAH!!! going at da walls again... hoo hooo hooo

2005-11-10T10:00:00.000+08:00

oh ya my sis Amira went at it again damn she was cute hahakz.. now she's hooked to it too weeeeee!!!!

2005-11-02T10:26:00.000+08:00

2005-10-11T12:40:00.000+08:00

this is a song for my frenz nabilah, faiz n rafidah... you know you're everything to me and I could never see
The two of us apart
And you know I give myself to you and no matter what you do
I promise you my heart

I've built my world around you and I want you to know
I need you like I've never needed anyone before

I live my life for you
I wanna be by your side in everything that you do
And if there's only one thing you can believe is true
I live my life for you

I dedicate my life to you, you know that I would die for you
But our love would last forever
And I will always be with you and there is nothing we can't do
As long as we're together

I just can't live without you and I want you to know
I need you like I've never needed anyone before

i've built my world around u and i want you to know
i need u live i never needed anyone before

i live my life for you

i live my life for u

2005-10-07T16:16:00.000+08:00

yesterday my bro made our family proud as he received dis medal on his Passing Out Parade...way a go BRO!!!

2005-10-07T16:14:00.001+08:00

watched da men in action!!!

2005-10-07T16:14:00.000+08:00

we checked out da all new n great bike..

2005-10-07T16:13:00.000+08:00

we sat on da rhino...

2005-10-07T16:11:00.000+08:00

der u hv it my lil bro Md Rizal collecting his medal for best trainee amongst his other peers in his Rota also known as group in general.. he was a bit pissed not gettin da overall best trainee but hey we're proud of ya kid!! it was da most memorable moment for me as i watched my bro recieve da medal n watched him in action thru a video dey made.. da whole ceremony was great, nuthin formal juz pure fun!!! CONGRATZ BRO u inspired me alot... DUM DILLY DILLY DUM!!!

2005-10-04T09:22:00.000+08:00

gosh i miz my frenz!! i miz dancing, i miz sports !!! i miz EVERYTHING!!! Ramadhan is juz a day away.. Fasting is da way to go... FRENZ I MIZ U ALL...

2005-10-02T11:29:00.000+08:00

i didnt hear from her da whole da yest... hope she's fine... gosh i was so worried i cudnt conc during my game.. hope u're fine gal..

2005-09-29T10:29:00.000+08:00

she's in da hospital.. my mind is twisted ARGH!! nevamind dat's life.. pray for da best hope she'll get well soon.. uhmm still wondering bout those small lil things.. sometimes these lil things r da ones dat make u move on in life without dem alamak nuthin to do man!! Alhamdulillah.. praise da Almighty for wateva i m facing rite now.. they made me strong no muscles but strong at heart n mind.. stay strong putri may u recover fast Insya'Allah.. DUM DILLY DILLY DUM... ('',)

2005-09-24T15:01:00.000+08:00

hope to start it off... currently presenting da members... down below...

2005-09-24T15:00:00.001+08:00

me...

2005-09-24T15:00:00.000+08:00

ayuuuuuuuuuuuu...

2005-09-24T14:59:00.001+08:00

last but not least Putri Nabilah DEWI...

2005-09-24T14:59:00.000+08:00

aiz rico...

2005-09-21T14:21:00.000+08:00

i watched a show juz now n it really made me realise sumthin... IT OPENED MY EYES... really wide i tell ya... i was asking myself da other time hey wat m i doing in life n all dat stuff... haha da ans is within me n till i hv achieved wat i m aiming for i'll go for da rest of my dreams... Insya'Allah...

2005-09-18T14:51:00.000+08:00

i was shock to learn that my lil princess lost her dearest fren.. she called me up dis morning n i tot she juz woke up once i heard dat low tone of hers... "my friend past away.." that was wat she told me before she cried.. everyone must have experienced this during their lives... relatives, friends, loved ones, they'll leave one day.. stay strong gal...

it was only two days ago when we were talking bout how a teenager drowned while playing ard at kallang... unfortunately dat unfateful event occured again this time taking away a life of another teenager, another fren, another son...

this tragic news struck me.. my loved ones came into my mind.. someday we'll be separated, someday we'll go ourselves.. honestly i find it hard to cry over the lost of a loved one.. not till one day i lost someone so dear to me.. she's still ard but not part of my life.. i cried and so wud anyone.. just imagine u wud cry wen u brk up wif someone.. wat if dat someone were to go away permanently.. i guess i'd cry even more...

i learn not to hate anyone no matter wat they did to me.. but instead i learn to cherish dem even more coz we r da same... cherish ur loved ones as dey will leave u one day or u might leave dem.. scars of a broken heart is hard to heal, hurt of losing a son, a brother, is really unbearable.. i wish to meet those dearest to me someday... asking for forgiveness is wat i wanna do... hoping to build dat friendship again before i leave coz i noe i will never forget them as they were once part of my life...

think of wat u're doing now.. see dat u're at the right path.. mistakes u made in life they're things that cant be undone... seek for forgiveness and always remember ur parents... i made a lot of stupid mistakes in my life.. i wud see to it that pple i hurt receive my apologies.. before i go..

be strong my lil putri.. may Allah bless ur friend's young soul..

take care my frenz..

take care Linda...

2005-09-09T11:19:00.000+08:00

ahhhh da nite life in S'pore...

2005-09-09T11:16:00.000+08:00

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

like my fathers come to pass
seven years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends

summer has come and passed
the innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

ring out the bells again
like we did when spring began
wake me up when september ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

like my father's come to pass
twenty years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends

2005-09-06T13:50:00.000+08:00

a pic i took at da chalet a few months back.... heya all... life has been a wonderful roller coaster ride for me... i've been thru ups n downs twist n turns n it was all worth it... haha bet u guyz feel da same way... pple i meet come n go feelings i feel come n go as well.. gonna face exams soon wishing all da best for ur exams... gosh life is full of surprises... dum dilly dilly dum... tata dat's all for now....

2005-09-04T20:31:00.000+08:00

faiz enjoying da air down at Esplanade haha!!!

2005-09-04T20:30:00.000+08:00

Best Buds 4 ever man!! Faiz u're da greatest thanks man u were der wen i was down thanks bro!!!

2005-09-04T20:29:00.000+08:00

i was der!!! down at Esplanade Cool Stuff!!!

2005-09-04T20:18:00.000+08:00

da most sweetest thing dat ever happened in my life... met dis lovely gal a few years ago but recently we juz met n whoah she's great... wat wat!!! my MERLION...

2005-09-04T20:16:00.000+08:00

oh ya we had a mysterious guest up at da Esplanade... he told us his name is Mr Mukabululebat... HAHA

2005-09-04T20:15:00.000+08:00

me n aiz enjoying da grapes we bought at cold storage... damn dat nite was da most happening nite ever... thanks Faiz... oh ya we were up at da rooftop of Esplanade... haha!!! enjoy!!!

2005-09-04T20:13:00.000+08:00

my frenz from da left Putri, Faiz n Rafidah juz after studying at National Library... didnt get to study actually coz da staff didnt allow students to study in da library!!! i dunno y but dat's da fact!!! cool graf huh!!!

2005-09-04T20:10:00.000+08:00

whoah wat happened to my hair!!! haha!! took a pic before my performance down at NP... da dance was a blast... did it wif my frenz together we formed FLINC... LET"D GET IT ON!!!

2005-08-27T09:56:00.000+08:00

My shattered dreams and broken heart
Are mending on the shelf
I saw you holding hands
Standing close to someone else
Now I sit all alone
Wishing all my feeling was gone
I gave my best to you
Nothing for me to do
But have one last cry

One last cry
Before I leave it all behind
I've gotta put you out of my mind this time
Stop living a lie
I guess I'm down to my last cry

I was here, you were there
Guess we never could agree
While the sun shines on you
I need some love to rain on me
Still I sit all alone
Wishing all my feeling was gone
Gotta get over you
Nothing for me to do
But have one last cry

I know I gotta be strong
Cause round me life goes on and on and on and on
I'm gonna dry my eyes
Right after I end my one last cry

One last cry
Before I leave it all behind
I've gotta put you out of my mind for the very last time
Been living a lie
I guess I'm down I guess I'm down
I guess I'm down... to my last cry

I miss you...

2005-08-17T19:23:00.000+08:00

Da other time down @ Sentosa i was too naughty my teacher had to pinch my ears!!! PLEASE PLEASE LET ME GO!!! ARGH!!!

2005-08-17T14:28:00.000+08:00

A good sight n a new beginning to a wonderful friendship... Faiz together wif me n my bro rizal (da pic on da right)....

2005-08-14T16:59:00.000+08:00

crab CRAB CRAB ON DA LOOSE!! da designers of da crab... rizal me faiz n mimi !!! HAHA

2005-08-14T16:28:00.000+08:00

My bro da one on da extreme right wif his frenz... He n his frenz got together n performed in this Arts & Cultural thingy.. Cool huh... Well franky i didnt expect my bro to b committed to this activity.. HAHA well done lil' bro...

2005-08-14T16:25:00.000+08:00

My family n i including Faiz, went to east coast yesterday n had da most wonderful time ever.. The sand crab was da main hightlight... We built this sand crab juz afta dipping ourselves in da sea... Haha so much was done yesterday... We went cycling, bowling n much much more... So there u go feast ur eyes on this SAND CRAB!!!

2005-08-03T20:24:00.000+08:00

Like wat Gonzalez is doing... He's wondering wat he has done wrong? All i wanted to noe was if she was ok... I m sori i didnt mean to b rude... I dont want u to get into unnecessary trouble... Pls take care of urself... God i didnt know dat i wud wori bout someone so much... I m sori i hv to feel dis way but i do still care bout u... Take care... N to my dearest Ida... Pls don get stressed too much aite... No matter wat i m here for ya... For all i m here if u eva need me.. Dat includes u too Linda... Stay out of trouble! ALL OF YA!!!

2005-07-24T18:54:00.000+08:00

Da boys of Eo3 from da front Jamil, Adam, Faiz, Iz n Me... posing before our dance performance @ Juying Sec... Let's Get It On Wat Wat...

2005-07-24T15:30:00.001+08:00

I've been down
Now I'm blessed
I felt a revelation coming 'round
I guess its right, it's so amazing
Everytime I see you I'm alive
You're all I've got
You lift me up

The sun and the moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes

I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
When the storm blows your way
I wanna be the earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathin' in
A soothin' wind
I wanna be inside your heaven

When we touch, when we love
The stars light up
The wrong becomes undone
Naturally, my soul surrenders
The sun and the moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes

When minutes turn to days and years
When mountains fall, I'll still be here
Holdin you until the day I die
I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
When the storm blows your way

I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
When the storm blows your way
I wanna be the earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathin' in
A soothin' wind
I wanna be inside your heaven...

2005-07-24T10:39:00.000+08:00

i visited her fotopages da other time and one of her post was a sad one.. gosh... den i went wondering while reading da whole thing n had something in mind but den that something i was thinking of faded away as i read da last line... not the line of da lyrics but a line she typed afta da whole song... congrats linda u're hapi now... u've found someone new that's great.. those who might read dis might say dat "fu'ad u're pretending to b hapi for her rite?"... n da ans to dat is ya i m pretending to b hapi for her... God noes wat happened to me da last few days... pple may say hey u're hapi now u really moved on.. yup dat's wat u think... dis post i m writing is not meant for me it's for my dearest fren linda... congrats n gd luck wif ur new relationship... my worries for u r still der as a fren but if u need anyone to tok to i welcome u to do so if u wan to... but da bottomline is take care of urself... God i cant believe i m saying dis again " i miz u "... gosh how i wish i can juz blurt out every single thing i conceal in dis heart of mine... how i wish i cud.. but anyway... take care linda i really hope to bump into u one day... till dat day comes take care of urself n may u be hapi n cheerful always...

2005-07-19T18:30:00.000+08:00

Played wif our own shadows outside Queensway Shopping Centre...

2005-07-19T18:28:00.000+08:00

Oh ya!!! This is almost da complete crew... Once we're done we're heading for da competitions n all... Show me da love wat wat!!! HAHA

2005-07-19T18:26:00.000+08:00

Wak Fu'ad baru habis dance training... Makin lama makin rabun kata org kan... EEEEEEEEEHA!!!!

2005-07-19T18:25:00.000+08:00

the rise of Eo3... da future dancers that wud bring Eo3's name to many glories i hope... HAHAHAHA... neway from left to rite... Rafidah, Faiz Rico, Me n Adam... LET"S GET IT ON!!!

2005-07-15T07:15:00.000+08:00

I had a wonderful day out yesterday... Firstly, I helped out in a roadshow @ far east square n it went fantastic.. Izhardi n I had so much to do like setting up banners, nets n so much more... Den at one moment i had to give out flyers n i went to everyone saying "Hi u wanna check dis out?" Oh ya! We were promoting this event which is da beach volleyball tournament @ sentosa... Some of u might wonder y @ far east square n frankly da crowd der was so DEAD.. We were bored at times but we got da chance to play volleyball n it was great.. Afta all dat i met an angel n had dinner n all went so well n great... N ya it was a magical evening again... HAHA... I cant describe anymore on dat... But Iz thanks man i really look forward to working wif u n Roy again thanks dude!!! K den till next time...

2005-07-13T10:13:00.000+08:00

Something weird happened yesterday... But i gotta say dat it was something unexpected n so unreal... I was out yesterday feeling down n all but it all changed when i came back.. In a few minutes time i'll b out to my dad's n also to my 1st dance rehearsal afta so long... I miz my frenz a lot... But i gotta tell u guyz dat yesterday was a magical day or shud i say evening... It was really magical.. I'm out... Speechless man... Whoah! Weird..

2005-07-12T09:55:00.000+08:00

I love this!!! Coincidently we wore t-shirts of the colours of the bike... So he'll hv da black side n i'll hv da yellow side... VROOM!!!

2005-07-12T09:50:00.000+08:00

Ha! The day i went to da roadshow n i came across this gorgeous bike... She's a beauty ain't she... See i'm actually dreaming bout riding on it... DREAM ON!!!

2005-07-12T08:46:00.000+08:00

I'm gonna start it all over again... From the scratch.. Gather my pple n start it again... Dance was wat i started wif n it's da thing i wanna be good at... Let's get it on!

2005-07-12T08:14:00.000+08:00

Once a cute girl came by and i was so full in love with her. Now after what happened, all i want to say is i'm sorry for the things i've said n for all the things i did. During the relationship i never thought i could love someone that bad. Things happen for a reason, all i want is for things to be normal again. I would still love to be her friend and if fate has it that i'll still have her i would really want that. I hope she's doing fine now n not getting to trouble again. I really miss her a lot. She's the friendliest and cutest person i've ever had and i really wouldn't wanna lose her. Take care my dearest friend. I really miss ya a lot. May someday we meet again. Till then take care.

2005-07-11T14:03:00.000+08:00

I miss her so much... If I cud I wud turn back time..

2005-07-11T13:38:00.000+08:00

Looking back at me, I see that I never really got it right. I never stopped to think of you. I'm always wrapped up in things I cannot win. You are the antidote that gets me by. Something strong like a drug that gets me high. What I really meant to say is I'm sorry for the way I am I never meant to be so cold. Never meant to be so cold. Azlinda I hope that you would really take care of yourself. I miss you dear. I hope I can see you again cause this heart has never stopped missing you and I have never stopped to imagine you walking by. Hearing your voice and being able to talk to you really made me so happy. Forgive me oh please do cause I miss you so badly. Still dear the love I had for you is still buried deep within my heart. I'm sorry that i have to feel this way but I still love you. Take care princess..

2005-06-28T17:20:00.000+08:00

i miss her badly... every morning dat i wake up phew i find it normal to just think about her... Linda i really miss u badly... I have done a lot this past few weeks and i want to show u wat i hv come wif so far i hv come up wif designs n oh gal as i m typing this u r on my mind.. in fact u hv been always on my mind.. study hard Linda i cant help saying this but i really mis u a lot.. i hope to c u again someday.. i miss u gal...

2005-06-18T10:45:00.000+08:00

i deleted my last post coz it's rude of me not to accept anyone's opinion on how i shud take things.. forgive me for my rudeness Maisarah.. please excuse me of my words it's hard 4 me.. thank u mai u were always der when i needed u n it is rude of me please forgive me i didn't mean to disrespect u.. thank u n forgive me of all my mistakes to u n ur frens n also to u linda lease forgive me of my mistakes only thru' dis blog can i actually say dat i still love u n i miz u badly.. please forgive me i can't help but to feel dis way.. please take care of urself linda i miz u n will always think of u..

2005-06-10T13:45:00.000+08:00

I feel so broken up. And I give up. I just want to tell you, so you know. Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you. You are my only one. I'd let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you do. You are my only, my only one. Made my mistakes, let you down. And I can't, I can't hold on for too long. Ran my whole life in the ground. And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone. And something's breaking up. I feel like giving up. I won't walk out until you know. Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you. You are my only one. I'd let go, but there's just no one who gets me like you do. You are my only my only one. Here I go, so dishonestly. Leave a note, for you my only one. And I know you can see right through me. Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you. You are my only one. I'd let go, but there's just no one, no one like you. You are my only, my only one. My only one. My only one. My only one. You are my only, my only one. - Yellowcard's My only one juz 4 u linda

2005-06-09T14:53:00.000+08:00

It was only yesterday when we were walking past my school's rugby field...

I did something terribly wrong no not only yesterday but for the past 17 months during my relationship with Azlinda. With a slight push, i accidentally made her trip in the middle of the road. Thank God there were no cars around. I tore her favourite pants, the pants her sister bought her. Why you may ask? Out of anger and stupidity i rage my fire and venge my anger to someone who had faith and trust in me all this while.

Before all this happened, we met with the will of Allah during one afternoon. We only got to know more of each other when i got her number through her friend. Initially she found me long winded as i talked too much but slowly the love and care grew as we met for days and days. We went through a lot some were fun and some bitter. Shared laughters and cries, everything seemed so sweet. Till one day...

I got angry with her over a small matter, initially i didn't think that my anger would rage and i would get so heartless. I did the unthinkable. Without any warning i smacked her on the face. It was dumb, it was heartless but she stayed on. As days went by i began to grow more and more violent and heartless. I did not even realise that i was actually controlling her in many ways. Over the phone i shouted, screamed, yelled and even cursed her. Whenever we meet her smile would warm my heart but my ego and selfishness kept my smile within myself. She grew angry and was slowly losing faith without me even realising it.

Yesterday was the day i got out of hand. Not getting what i wanted i pushed her around thinking that she was being rude. She stayed quiet and calm as i raged in anger. That was when it happened. She tripped and fell when we were crossing the road with the slightest push of my hand. I helped her up thinking that she was fine. She ran away from me not only till i got hold of her and discovered that she hurt her hand and leg. But that didn't stop me from hurting her more. As she was crying wanting to go home i tried to calm her down but as she struggled and tried to push me away, without even thinking i gave her two strong slaps to her back. That was when it struck to me that it was all over. I tried to redeem myself, i cried to her for forgiveness but all was in vain. That night after sending her home i could not help but to cry of my lost.

Azlinda i hope you are reading this. With words i say would not help but i hope with words i type would convey this message to you:

Everyday i wake up in the morning the very first person that comes into my mind is you. I call to check if you're ok if you were still around to keep me company through my days. Everytime i meet you i would feel those childish thoughts wanting to joke around with you. All that didn't happen, promises i made went to waste and broken right after days it was made. I realised my mistakes, all of them that i made through these 17 months. All the pain that you felt, all the sickness that you endured i feel them all. Now all i need is one more just one more chance to make it up to you.

I can't imagine myself in the arms of another neither can i imagine you in the arms of someone else. Eventhough i scold you, cursed and hit you Linda i am still deeply in love with you. Through times that i told myself i could not make it, you were my motivator, you gave me the strength i need.

I regret not being able to carry out activities that i planned for so long. I regret getting you into trouble all this while. Please i beg you, i still need you. I still want to be that someone who calls you every morning to say hi and someone to wish you goodnight everytime you were to sleep. Give me that opportunity again. Let me show you who i really am that Ayat you once knew and loved. Please let me have the power to say I LOVE YOU once again.

Till that day comes all i want you to do is to take care of yourself and dear i still do care and i still do love you with all my heart. With pain and sadness i type these words with tears i shed thinking of all the bad things i put you through, all i want to say is that regretted every single minute of it and i'm sorry that i hurt you in so many ways. All i wanted was to love you, all i wanted was to see you smile again. I didn't mean to just waste it all just by making you cry. I can't help but to cry thinking of all the bad things i did i'm sorry please forgive me.

The touch of your face and the warmth of your hug i can feel it all though being far away from you. I miss you so much, i am so sorry Linda i am so sorry i hurt you. Being away from you makes me feel sad enough but being vanished away from you makes me hurt even more. I don't want to thank you for all the sweet memories, I want them to live them till the day i breathe out my last breath.

To all her friends please forgive me for what i did. You may have heard from others or even Linda herself what i did to her. Judge as you may i won't deny anything but please i want my Linda back. I apologise for the moments i had to disturb you all. Please forgive me of my actions. Maisarah please forgive me.

Azlinda please forgive me. All i need is just one more chance...

2004-09-21T11:02:00.000+08:00

haiz another time of stress n pressure as the exams r drawing near... everything has been great so far not in skool though coz i really had a hard time keeping up wif due dates for my assignments...

in school now.. waiting for my grp members hoping to have a run thru' for my presentation later.. man do we dislike our tutor... he's such a i don noe how to describe him.. but everything is gonna end soon n i'm gonna face alot of things later in life... gotta persevere though..

things have been great between me n shorty... she's such a strong gal.. eventhough she's having trouble wif her knee she's still playing her favourite sport!!! she's in skool now waiting eargerly to score more goals later agaisnt SMU.. my skool was knocked out in the early stages.. there's still other season...

man it's really great to finally get to settle things down a bit..

still a long way to go n yet so much to do...

still alive fit n strong facing obstacles in life..

still upgrading myself...

i love u dear

i love u my family

smiles!!!

2004-08-30T07:59:00.000+08:00

da other day i met azlinda we had a terrific time together... we went laughing singing n all... it was a lot of fun... juz had my common test n it was kinda disastrous... scary i gotta buck up for my finals... don think some of my papers can make it...

it has been 3 days since i last saw her... hardly hear her voice... dat sweet voice... man i miss her badly now... i got a lot to catch up wif... my floorball my projects my studies... but i miss her badly so bad!!!!

she's gonna play two unofficial games wif sweden n hoping dat i'll be der her hopes were washed away as i am gonna be packed wif a lot of activities dis week... hope u'll understand dear...

i have alot to do...

may i change to be better...

in everything i do...

i love my family...

i love azlinda...

i love myself...

miz u gal!!!

2004-08-10T17:10:00.000+08:00

yet again another long day for me... somthing someone said made me really feel damn down...

damn it!!! sometimes i eva wonder do pple talk to me due to sympathy/juz pretending to care BUT THEY'RE NOT/simply juz going "oh, izzit, really"... well if u're one of dem FUCK U!!! don talk to me if u don even wanna hear any words coming out of my mouth!!!

i noe i m not good in my studies!!! well like DUHHHH!!! it's not like as if i m not trying hard in it!!! doesn't mean i slack ard it shows dat i've lost interest in studies!!! i m worried like anyone else... well fuck let me get straight to da point!!! to those who talk to me don be sarcastic!!! FUCK U!!! i have feelings too!!!

talk to me as if i m some kind of rubbish shit well FUCK OFF!!! if u're truly a fren tell me where i m wrong den wake me up!!! stop showing me shit!!!

well frankly i don give a damn to dis kind of pple... hope i m juz letting it out to u blogger n not being disturb bout it coz for sure dis thing is not gonna bother me in my strive to suceed...

to all my frens if u think dat i m slacking help me out... n don treat me like a piece of SHIT!!!

thank u...

2004-08-05T21:18:00.000+08:00

i thought dat my dear didn't know how to blade but she do know how to!!!

wow da day was great she was cute n funny n all... she really made my day... thank u dear... some other time we'll do something else ok!!! we have juz so many things in mind... so many things to do together...

i miss u... i miss u so much...

dear thank u... all dis while ur patience really paid off... u held on so strong n u believed in me... thank u... eventhough der was once u almost gave up on me u changed ur mind n told urself to give me time n another chance... thank u dear thank u so much...

do study hard n please dear take care of urself wen u face da world... so many things ard u dat u might not be aware it's dangerous to u... so do take care of urself... don think of others wen u train dear... don feel so down wen u train wif da good ones... train to be better dear ok!!! i believe in u coz i noe dat u can make it...

dear so many things u go thru in life may be hard n easy... i m sorry i have to contribute to da hard ones more den da sweet n easy ones... but ur faith n trust in me has never been so low n down... i was so afraid dat things might change dat i might lose u dear...

thank u once again n don worry da happiness u're feeling will get better by da days...

i love u azlinda i love u my family!!!

2004-08-02T22:29:00.000+08:00

AZLINDA i miss u gal....

Thank u for coming down to my school juz to have lunch dear... I really do appreciate it... It's juz dat kan u penat... Den u rush down to my skool... n i was a bit worried coz i forgot to inform u dat da bus does not end at clementi interchange...

luckily u knew... sori dear juz now i told u dat i'd call u but da public phone was out of order dear... i'm sori... i was really happy and sad coz u have to rush here n der juz to see me dear... THANK U SO MUCH I LOVE U PRINCESS!!!

one day we'll sit n juz tok bout ur pics... man were u really cute wen u were young n guess wat u still are cute!!! i love da pic wen u were singing... dear everything dat i've went thru wif u were never such boredom...

everyday being wif u is an adventure n i m really lucky to have u as my galfren... i thank Allah everyday n pray dat da future would be bright for us...

thank u azlinda... thank u so much coz u are truly lovely

i love u my dear i really do...

my trust n faith will never fade as long as u noe how to take care of urself n please don brk our trust...

i love u dear!!!

2004-07-26T16:32:00.000+08:00

at da stairs now waiting for my frens to end their maths lecture...

it's gonna rain soon i guess da sky seems to be getting darker... had lunch wif dearie at sakura... she was happy n all after meeting up wif her ex-colleagues... after da lunch, her body was kinda warm... hope she's not gonna have another fever... man it's gonna be painful for her coz she's bearing wif her growing wisdom tooth now... juz hope dat u'll be fine gal da pain is going away soon... anyway thanks for dropping by juz to have lunch wif me... boy were we both full!!!

haiz... i missed another lecture again!!! i tot dat da lecture was 2 hours long... i forgot dat da lecture was only one hour!!! my fren gave me dis remarked "fu'ad u have missed a couple of lectures... man it's gonna be hard for u to catch up!!!" dat was really an awakening call for me!!! thanks fauzi!!! u really made me realised dat wow we really have not much time left... gotta do dat airport thing again... somehow i have to start my engine again...

i guess it's gonna be a peak period for me now... making notes revising memorising n all!!! IVP's ard da corner n i'm still recovering from my bad condition... man hope i'll get selected...

i have so much thoughts in my mind rite now... mostly thoughts of my family... studies n u gal!!!

i love my family, azlinda n myself...

gotta start studying... take care u all!!!

gotta go these mosquitoes r killing me... juz smacked n killed 1 out of 3 of dem which were sucking my blood from my leg!!! damn mosquitoes!!! love u dear... love u my family!!!

2004-07-23T01:47:00.000+08:00

i neva tot dat things were gonna be dis way... neva tot dat i can b so mean at times... again me n my big mouth spoil another human being's life...

i don intend to make it sound so difficult... i was worried disappointed n angry... she was going for a phat nite some sort of a party for her club n freshies... something dat most teenagers would want to go for... she asked me along da other day... thinking dat it was gonna be great i was wondering y not... i neva had da chance to go for something like dis... but in da end i couldn't as she couldn't get me in...

den i had to be so worked up abt things... i was worried dat something might happen to her... i mean shit can happen anywhere anytime... so der i go again... getting so worried n all... i don mean to make pple's life hard n i don wanna take control of her life... by da tot of it i m treating her more like a wife or a daughter... she was so fragile... i really don want anything bad to happen to her...

i guess i'm being too over protective at times...

she has had enough... i mean who wouldn't... i really didn't mean to hurt her... so many times i really don... i had to b so worried n angry all da time... i hate it wen she cries n i hate it wen i have to make her go so frustrated... well i guess i don have to worry now... i mean she's human n we human bound to make mistakes... a human... she still have her family... i'm sorry...

i guess i'm too much n i guess i'll lay low dis time... dis mr. worry will be out of business now... knowing dat i'm not hurting her no more i hope she'll be happy... sometimes having someone who loves u is great... but i guess my love is juz to rough i mean it is... something so concern can b something so hurtful... tot dat i was being caring turned out dat i was juz angry...

no more hurts... no more fights... no more tears...

2004-07-22T13:23:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 7th MONTH DEAR!!!

man did i had fun with her...

well here's wat happened...

we played pool man was she cool
being beaten 4 games to 1
did i really made her drool
as i pocketed da balls in one by one

took pics with her
juz da two of us
got to hug n hear her laughter
had to look great man dat was a muz

da day got darker
we made a move
man wasn't she a great lover
she gave me a kiss dat made me groove

bottomline is i love u my princess...
n i really look forward till we meet again my sweet pie!!!

2004-07-16T07:21:00.000+08:00

Gal never have i eva labelled u as a bad galfren...

Never have i never been unsatisfied wen i'm wif u...

Dear all dis while all u want is a simple n fun relaionship... I want it too... I miz those times we laughed shared jokes n all dat... Dear of all da things dat i've said all da hurtful words dat i've mentioned was truly never occured to me dat it is true... I never meant to hurt u in so many ways... U have never asked too much dear never... N eventhough of all da hurt n pain i've put u thru' u've always been der wen i need u...

Gal all da time dat i've sacrificed for u was never a burden or an act of sympathy... I was der wen u had ur trials wen u played ur games... I was der to give u support... It is alwasys great to do something wif da support of loved ones... I was der to give my support n to show u how much dat i care n love u dear...

I swear dat u r all dat i need... U don have to change a thing abt u gal...

All dat has to be changed is me...

U still have fears wen i start to talk n all...

U still have da thought dat i would never unserstand...

I don blame u gal coz i've been like dat...

I love u AZLINDA...

I'll proof it to u n make it a point dat i'm not dat guy no more...

Achieve ur dreams study hard n please do take care of urself princess...

With da will of Allah...

With our parents blessings...

I hope dat we could build much more den wat we have rite now...

My love for u have never been down...

After much hurt i've put upon u...

I hope dat my apologies were never denied...

I'm sorry gal...

I miss u n i certainly love u so much...

Princess i can't bear to see u sad again...

I can't bear to see us apart coz of me...

I love u n these three words means a lot...

Take care n may Allah bless u n ur family dear...

I'm sorry for all da hurt i've put u thru'

I love u dear...

2004-07-11T23:54:00.000+08:00

ok... i'm crashing in soon...

saw my gal play floorball today... she was great i tell ya... fantastic n bravo she scored a goal!!! wow can u believe it... she's good!!! der is still room for improvement but she's good... love u dear...

came back home... slept thru'out da train ride... i guess i dreamt abt u dear!!! ha muz be missing u badly rite now... wait a minute... I DO MISS U GAL!!!

n i certainly love u so much!!! it was fun gal u gave me da will to play as strong as u r despite hard times... u're strong gal as strong as my feelings r towards u rite now...

still have more but i guess i'll save it for later... nitez all

i'll be dreaming bout u gal

i'm here without u baby but u're still on my lonely mind
i think abt u baby n i dream abt u all da time
i'm here without u baby but u're still with me in my dreams
n tonite gal it's onli u n me...

muacks!!! love u gal
miss my dad...

2004-07-07T23:09:00.000+08:00

today was full of fun for me... i met my gal... got to play wif fishes...

today in skool i had my OBC n AQUA practical... da OBC prac was quite ok but it was pure fun when i had my AQUA... i tot it was gonna be another boring lecture bout fishes but no we did something different today... we actually had to breed 30 fishes in groups of four... it was great... i had to struggle wif da small net i had to catch da small fishes but it was great... after which we had to measure n weigh da fishes... one of da fishes actually fell to da grd coz my fren lost her grip... who wouldn't those fishes were slippery... but it was pure fun

den i went to my gal's skool where i met her... we had a porridge n a bowl of noodles together... it was great to see her... man i miss u gal... after which we played checkers but to bad we only got to play for a while coz da club was packing up at six... it's ok dear der's always next time ok... hehehehe... den she had to come up wif dis cute sentence "wow der's so many pple, mana tak kan sekarang office hour go back time" hahaha dear u're cute... n i really love da necklace u gave me!!! MAN I LOVE U DEAR!!! COME HERE MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM!!!*hugs*

dear i have faith in us... do study hard ok dear... da deal is on!!!

i witnessed two of my frens get together as bf gf in skool... man dat was really touchy... it reminded me of da day i got together wif u gal... MMMMMMMMMMMUACKS man u're sweet gal...

i love u n dat's all it matters... study hard dear...

MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMUACKS!!!

nitez all!!!

I MISS N LOVE U SO MUCH MAMA BEAR!!!